First of all, I have been super stressed lately and yesterday was NOT a good day at school. But we went to the park and played before soccer practice and that really helped me get out of that space. Adjusting back to college life with a family has not been the easiest thing in the world. With my high expectations for myself academically, the lack of studying time/creative study time has been a frustration that I am still working out.
BUT . . .
I thought I should remind myself in writing (typing) what is so great about my life.
~God hasn't given up on me. Though I have given up on myself at times, He has always been there
~ I have a husband that loves me and tries to be nice to me even when I'm not to him.
~ He also supports me going back to school to get a degree (and remind myself I know more than veggietales songs)
~ I have two wonderful sons who sometimes drive me crazy but are a joy all the same. Both their birthdays are this month and it is my favorite month b/c of that!
~ I have super in-laws, especially my MIL who watches Drew when I'm at school and Tony has meetings
~ My mom helps me with my english papers even when I call after 11 on a school night. And I already asked her this question the week before.
~ We have a great zoo here in Fort Wayne and it has been so much fun to take Drew at least every week this summer. Austin thinks it's boring, but Drew loves all the animals
~We have some really fun parks/playgrounds near us. Both boys love to go and play at them as much as we can.
~My family is happy (most of the time) and healthy. I read/hear about other parents who have lost their children or they are very sick and am so thankful mine are healthy.
~ The Colts are winning and Tony Kanaan is finishing races :)
Friday, September 25, 2009
Friday, September 11, 2009
I have survived
First test. Check. First paper. Check.
The test was easy (communications class). The paper on the other hand . . . other than the crying fits and yelling and procrastinating to the point of EXERCISING, it got done. Well the first draft anyway. Academic journals = not fun to read! I am so grateful my mom teaches college english, because I am going over to her house this weekend for help rewriting. She totally rocks!
I am not the nicest person when I feel like I can't do something. Seriously I thought I would rather just literally pull my hair out than write this thing. Not good for anyone to be near me (ask Tony). But my saint of a husband still read one of the journal articles to help me make sense of it! Dealing with this feeling of inadequacy constructively is something I'll have to work on in the future. BTW, don't ever take 16 credit hours. You are a crazy person if you do.
On a completely other note, Drew is 2!! We celebrated his birthday in two "shifts" this year. We had cake and ice cream at my parents' house this weekend, then Tuesday went to Chuck E Cheese with Tony's family. It was Drew's first time there and he really seemed to like it, especially the roll the ball game (what is that called??? brain freeze) and riding the horsey. Austin of course used as many tokens as he could to get a bunch of tickets and get prizes. He is like a crazy boy in there!
If anyone wants Boy Scout popcorn, Austin is selling it! Let me know :)
The test was easy (communications class). The paper on the other hand . . . other than the crying fits and yelling and procrastinating to the point of EXERCISING, it got done. Well the first draft anyway. Academic journals = not fun to read! I am so grateful my mom teaches college english, because I am going over to her house this weekend for help rewriting. She totally rocks!
I am not the nicest person when I feel like I can't do something. Seriously I thought I would rather just literally pull my hair out than write this thing. Not good for anyone to be near me (ask Tony). But my saint of a husband still read one of the journal articles to help me make sense of it! Dealing with this feeling of inadequacy constructively is something I'll have to work on in the future. BTW, don't ever take 16 credit hours. You are a crazy person if you do.
On a completely other note, Drew is 2!! We celebrated his birthday in two "shifts" this year. We had cake and ice cream at my parents' house this weekend, then Tuesday went to Chuck E Cheese with Tony's family. It was Drew's first time there and he really seemed to like it, especially the roll the ball game (what is that called??? brain freeze) and riding the horsey. Austin of course used as many tokens as he could to get a bunch of tickets and get prizes. He is like a crazy boy in there!
If anyone wants Boy Scout popcorn, Austin is selling it! Let me know :)
Friday, September 4, 2009
Random comments/observations so far
The older students (those who weren't in elementary school when I graduated high school!)seem to gravitate towards each other.
Parking is very easy for an 8am class. Not so much for other times.
My least favorite class is english (sorry mom!). Plus that prof drives me crazy.
It is so very annoying when people talk during class. Seriously I didn't pay all this money to hear you make stupid comments!
The fourth floor of the library IS a great place to study, except when they are working on the building next door.
I can't stop thinking about my anatomy class. I go over regions and bones and muscles whenever I have a spare moment - and I probably look really weird, since I touch where the bones are!
Parking is very easy for an 8am class. Not so much for other times.
My least favorite class is english (sorry mom!). Plus that prof drives me crazy.
It is so very annoying when people talk during class. Seriously I didn't pay all this money to hear you make stupid comments!
The fourth floor of the library IS a great place to study, except when they are working on the building next door.
I can't stop thinking about my anatomy class. I go over regions and bones and muscles whenever I have a spare moment - and I probably look really weird, since I touch where the bones are!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Ready or not, here I go!
I have finished my first two days of classes. I am feeling very overwhelmed right now. First of all, the walking!! I am not used to it, especially with a full backpack of stuff! And the parking is definitely not fun. I have gotten lucky most times and found a spot, but my sister and mom were right when they said it's a nightmare to find a spot. I drove around today for 20 minutes and finally lucked out and only had to walk across most of the main campus : )
I like all of my professors. My english prof is very punny - which I am used to, since I am married to a Hakel. It should keep me awake since this is an 8am class. All of my profs for my Tues/Thurs classes seems very nice, especially my nutrition and antatomy & phys classes. Some of the kids in my classes are annoying though, oh my I never would've thought I would be in class with people who were 8 when I first started college! It is very weird. I have found some nice gals to chat with before most of my classes, except english. I am lucky to have my eyes open for that one!
As of right now, having had one day of each class, that I am most looking forward to Nutrition and Anatomy & Physiology. Probably because I know each of these is very applicable to my major, and I will use the info a lot (esp. a&p)!
I'm not sure that I am ready to be away from Drew for so much of my days. I have been home with him since he was born and I know I will miss him a lot. Austin is going to public school this year, I was going to homeschool him but everyone persuaded me that might be too much to handle. He is riding the bus for the first time in his life and is very excited about it! Hopefully Tony will be here most mornings I am not (if not, his mom will be) and I will be here 3 days a week when Austin gets home (other 2 Tony's mom). I know Austin will makes friends quickly, but I hope us slowing down on math at the end of last year won't hurt him too much.
Is Tony ready for me to go back? Not sure about that one. The moms who had gone back were talking about family members taking over some of the housework, etc and I felt like he was not prepared to hear that! The cooking won't change much, he makes all the good food anyway :) but I will need some assistance with the cleaning.
We will see how the studying goes. So far I have nap times 5 days a week, so that's 10 hours. The rest will be after the boys are asleep. Gotta remember to have some fun too (that's what weekends are for right?)
I like all of my professors. My english prof is very punny - which I am used to, since I am married to a Hakel. It should keep me awake since this is an 8am class. All of my profs for my Tues/Thurs classes seems very nice, especially my nutrition and antatomy & phys classes. Some of the kids in my classes are annoying though, oh my I never would've thought I would be in class with people who were 8 when I first started college! It is very weird. I have found some nice gals to chat with before most of my classes, except english. I am lucky to have my eyes open for that one!
As of right now, having had one day of each class, that I am most looking forward to Nutrition and Anatomy & Physiology. Probably because I know each of these is very applicable to my major, and I will use the info a lot (esp. a&p)!
I'm not sure that I am ready to be away from Drew for so much of my days. I have been home with him since he was born and I know I will miss him a lot. Austin is going to public school this year, I was going to homeschool him but everyone persuaded me that might be too much to handle. He is riding the bus for the first time in his life and is very excited about it! Hopefully Tony will be here most mornings I am not (if not, his mom will be) and I will be here 3 days a week when Austin gets home (other 2 Tony's mom). I know Austin will makes friends quickly, but I hope us slowing down on math at the end of last year won't hurt him too much.
Is Tony ready for me to go back? Not sure about that one. The moms who had gone back were talking about family members taking over some of the housework, etc and I felt like he was not prepared to hear that! The cooking won't change much, he makes all the good food anyway :) but I will need some assistance with the cleaning.
We will see how the studying goes. So far I have nap times 5 days a week, so that's 10 hours. The rest will be after the boys are asleep. Gotta remember to have some fun too (that's what weekends are for right?)
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
this and that
Tony said I need to blog, so here you go sweetie! I successfully did not watch "Jon & Kate Plus 8" on Monday, I have decided not to watch anymore for a few reasons. #1 - they are exploiting their kids, and especially now when the kids' lives are turned upside down b/c of what is happening with their parents; #2 - it is getting boring, plus I don't like how much they focus on Kate and her being a single mother doing it all - excuse me but you have PLENTY of paid help you are not doing it yourself; and #3 - if I liked watching 1/2 hour commercials, I would watch them. It is not fun to watch anymore. I hope the show is canceled soon and the kids get somewhat of a normal childhood (whatever is left of it). Okay, off my soapbox now.
My little sister got married a week and a half ago. It was beautiful and the weather was not as hot as a normal July, so that was nice. She looked so gorgeous in her dress! My friends Sarah and Adam got married last weekend. That was also beautiful, they got married in the History Center downtown. Drew loved the choo-choo on the first floor of the museum so much that we were some of the last people to go back upstairs for the reception! We didn't get to stay as long as I would've liked; Drew hurt his finger in a chair; but I still got to chat a little bit with some high school friends.
Our 9 year anniversary was yesterday. We went out last week when the boys were at my parents' house for the week, so yesterday we just went to my parents' house and went swimming in their pool and had steak for dinner. Yummy! We are trying to figure out what to do next year for our tenth. We have almost an entire year to decide, any suggestions?
Only 19 more days until I start college again. I need to buy my books and there is an orientation I have to go to on the 20th. I still need to walk around campus and find where my classes are so I don't look like the big dork that I am on the first day of classes. It will definitely take some adjusting to figure out when I will be able to study w/out being up all night every night. But it can and will be done!
My little sister got married a week and a half ago. It was beautiful and the weather was not as hot as a normal July, so that was nice. She looked so gorgeous in her dress! My friends Sarah and Adam got married last weekend. That was also beautiful, they got married in the History Center downtown. Drew loved the choo-choo on the first floor of the museum so much that we were some of the last people to go back upstairs for the reception! We didn't get to stay as long as I would've liked; Drew hurt his finger in a chair; but I still got to chat a little bit with some high school friends.
Our 9 year anniversary was yesterday. We went out last week when the boys were at my parents' house for the week, so yesterday we just went to my parents' house and went swimming in their pool and had steak for dinner. Yummy! We are trying to figure out what to do next year for our tenth. We have almost an entire year to decide, any suggestions?
Only 19 more days until I start college again. I need to buy my books and there is an orientation I have to go to on the 20th. I still need to walk around campus and find where my classes are so I don't look like the big dork that I am on the first day of classes. It will definitely take some adjusting to figure out when I will be able to study w/out being up all night every night. But it can and will be done!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
19 and pregnant
I am sitting here watching "16 and pregnant" on MTV (I know I know) and the girl who is on this show is considering adoption for her baby. I don't know if she will go through with it or not b/c there is a half hour left. While watching her meet the adoptive parents and go through the doubts, I am once again so glad that we chose to keep Austin instead of giving him up for adoption. When I got pregnant at 19, we did consider it early in my pregnancy since we were so young and had no idea how to provide for him. If we had, I would've missed out on so many amazing things. Watching Austin grow and become a little boy, now a big boy. His weeks when he was 4 of wearing only his spider-man outfit, silly dancing all over the living room, and what an awesome big brother he has been for Andrew (among other many things). I am so thankful we have had all these years with him and will have many more, instead of wondering what he looks like and what kind of person he is becoming. We definitely made the right decision for our family.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Today is 07/08/09
I know I am a dork but I love today's date! Drew was born on 09/08/07 and I love that also!
I can't believe we are this far into the summer. It feels like it is flying past. Austin has been playing Wildcat baseball and he LOVES it. I personally am not a fan of baseball, but I may have to become one. So that gives us at least one thing to do 4 days a week, as long as the weather cooperates. Drew really enjoys going to the games and walking around, collecting flowers and rocks and staring at the pretty little girls that give him flowers. I think he falls in love every game!
My little sis gets married on the 25th of this month. We have her bridal shower and bach party this weekend. It should be a fun time! I am also looking forward to seeing family that is coming from out of town for the wedding. Not so much looking forward to wearing my dress the entire day since I can't really breathe in it (how will I eat??) - - but that is my own fault. :(
If anyone has not watched the show "Wipeout" you really really should! I laugh so hard during that show and actually give it my undivided attention (ask Tony, that doesn't often happen). Those people are so brave to be complete idiots on TV and entertain me!
Well that's about it for now. Happy Birthday to all the little ones who are turning one soon or just turned one. Also to the baby girl who is due anyday now!
I can't believe we are this far into the summer. It feels like it is flying past. Austin has been playing Wildcat baseball and he LOVES it. I personally am not a fan of baseball, but I may have to become one. So that gives us at least one thing to do 4 days a week, as long as the weather cooperates. Drew really enjoys going to the games and walking around, collecting flowers and rocks and staring at the pretty little girls that give him flowers. I think he falls in love every game!
My little sis gets married on the 25th of this month. We have her bridal shower and bach party this weekend. It should be a fun time! I am also looking forward to seeing family that is coming from out of town for the wedding. Not so much looking forward to wearing my dress the entire day since I can't really breathe in it (how will I eat??) - - but that is my own fault. :(
If anyone has not watched the show "Wipeout" you really really should! I laugh so hard during that show and actually give it my undivided attention (ask Tony, that doesn't often happen). Those people are so brave to be complete idiots on TV and entertain me!
Well that's about it for now. Happy Birthday to all the little ones who are turning one soon or just turned one. Also to the baby girl who is due anyday now!
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